15th May,2009..

That was our last day in college..Its been more than an yr now, but somehow its really difficult for me to let go of that place..Every now and then something or the other pulls me back to college..
I was randomly surfing through my facebook page when i came across some random classmates photo album titled "BIT ke din" and involuntarily my fingers pressed the left button of the mouse on that link..I kept wondering as i went nxt-nxt on the pix,y am i evn seeing these pix..These are the same faces i hated bck in college..Why am i evn wasting my time goin through their pix..But the classroom in the backdrop,those desks whr we sat (read "slept") through endless boring lectures,played all possible word games(thats was how our registers and pens were put to use nywys),brought back those wonderful memories and a feeling of being one of the few lucky ones to have had such a splendid clg life! The album had the same canteen whr we sat all day,doing absolutly nothing..just talkin! Listening to hundred thousand stories which our frnds from othr branches had to tell us! but all those stories had 1 thing common,how the faculty was bugged to such an extent that he/she forgets the art of teaching( the art of learning we nvr had,so nthn to lose their :P ) and never dares to do it ever again..sometimes we succeeded,sometimes failed..sometimes they gave up to our constant pleading,sometimes shouted back,even complained to the HOD(who was considered the highest authority),and then the usual drill of writing an apology letter and the whole class signing it followed! but lookin back at all of it now just brings a smile on d face..Im not sad that its over,just sad that it ended so soon,dint last a lil bit longer!
Finding the label "BIT" on mostly every college mate's blog makes me feel happy beyond words..I know all of us have moved in life,we are nt at the same place nymre,but these three letters are something which will alwys keep us together,tied to each other tightly. Not all of us were frnds, but the feeling of reading someone's blog who walked to class everydy on the same roads as u ,sat on the same benches,ate the same sucky mess food,found canteen food a delight,but nvr frgt to complain abt its price and the pool of oil which was noticable even to an 80 yr old woman without her thick glasses, is priceless! seeing the pics of the main insti building,ic,oc,river,classroom,canteen,hostel,amul,juice wala,puchka wala,makes me feel wat a heaven i lived in! i knw lik evry1 else frm tht clg,i hav abused that place as much i could,but the realization of its worth only struck now..How beautilful it looked wen it rained,n on an early winter morning,n in spring,wen the roads were covered with flowers of all possible colours,how the cool wind put us to slp every night and the need fr an ac or a cooler nvr hit us! that place was wonderful in all seasons and in all times!
My college life might be over but im not ready to let go of it so soon..All of us are still connected to each other by either someones photo album,or blog or by just seeing a fellow clg mate walkin around in our office! Those four years will alwys be around us,in some form or the other and will never fail to lift us up wen we are down,will alwys be thr to make us smile,n at times fill our eyes with tears!

The “4” fours of 2k4!!

Was messaging a friend and suddenly felt like writing this article for those who I haven’t met for a long time, just to let them know that they are still as imp as always, and my life wouldn’t mean the same, if they were not such an imp part of it! Distance hasn’t made us fall apart, infact it has only made us bond more... Each memory spent with each one of them is secured in my heart, tied with the strongest possible chain, no chance of getting lost or stolen...
So let’s begin... This friend circle is commonly referred as my "2K4 friends"!!

I went for my 1st outstation trip (to cal) with these people, God knows what was I even thinking! In a group of 6, I only knew 1 person other than me! Scared, shy, nervous, desperately trying hard to impress, I somehow managed to spend 1 entire day with them. I was terribly petrified of 2 of them, had a double mind to cancel my trip as soon as I saw their names on the ticket, only the idea of those 2 coming along, made me sweat! They had a huge fan following in the girl’s hostel and that’s where I got all my inputs from. These 2 guys never spoke to the female kind, and thus were labeled to have "attitude"! I begged as much energy as I could from the universe and went for the trip, only to return with loads of memories and 2 best friends! That 1 day was filled with love, friendship, pain (when I twisted my ankle and couldn’t walk: P), melodrama (omg! on the way back, when my parents and all called!), happiness, every possible emotion! It was a memorable trip indeed!
Everyday in itself was perfect back then, even the sad days don’t seem sad anymore. Wish I could live one more day with them, teasing them, calling them by their own special, personalized nick names ("chotu"),sharing veg food in the canteen EVERYDAY(particularly biryani and aloo dum kashmiri),talking endlessly over the phone till sunrise, waiting at pmc for hours, walking on the OC road, plucking thorns, studying mup, be, diac, dsp(all subjects i can think of)in the canteen, sending "good night, pillows and cushion" messages at night, going to ranchi endless number of times, getting high, fighting over the auto fare, crying over the exam result......there is no full stop to this list! Everyday was special, is special!

I remember being there with them the day they got placed. Sitting in oat, listening to their names being called out, being a part of their happiness! No doubt I was happy, but the fear of them going and me having to spend one entire year alone filled my eyes with tears only that thought made my heart ache! I didn't know how I would survive in that place, my batch had already boycotted me for hanging out with the "seniors"! But the sadness of them leaving me and going was incomparable to anything else. Didn’t care for anyone, just wanted a miracle to happen, and wished all of them stayed back with me! But time obviously didn’t stop, infact ran faster than its own capability. The day finally came. Dropping them at the station was the hardest thing I had to do. Didn’t know when I would see chotu again, when would I get the chance to tease him next. Didn’t know when I’ll see the magical rain fall on us again. Didn’t know when someone will hear me cry all night, listen to all my crap and still love me for who I am. Everyone was going, and a lil bit of me was leaving with them too...
Thankfully one of them stayed back, not for the entire year but one semester! I had bargained a good deal for myself! That was the semester I stayed with him most of the time, coz of which I attracted a lot of teasing towards myself! I found someone who again cared for me, loved me and shared my sadness with me! He was there for me, to wipe my tears, giving me his shoulder to cry on!

These 4 people made me the person I am today… They made me explore a side of myself I never knew I had... Each one of them has a special place in my heart, a special meaning in my life, the time spent with them, the memories I have, will always be there with me, no matter where I go! I miss them terribly, and desperately waiting to meet them again!!
Love u guys, always will!!

My Silver Lining!

Omg I never thought that I’m going to be so jobless after having a "real" job :P Me and my equally jobless friend have been continuously chatting on "sametime", ya thats what the TCS chat engine is called, coz maybe we all get bored at the sametime n so want to chat at the sametime or any idiotic interpretation that you can think of, doesn’t really matter! The bottom line is that we both are highly bored, and not only today, but every single day! Not that we are dying to work or anything, but wish there was "something nice" to do, and the "nice" is, doing any God damn thing on the planet other than wasting time and life in office like this! Shit, all the beautiful dreams we had about this over hyped life, the so called, "work life" are broken into tiny miny pieces, so tiny that the naked eye can’t even see them anymore. There is no fun sitting in front of the comp for 9 hours, or more, but never less, stare at your nearby associates who in turn are so dedicatedly staring at their desktop screens as if they have achieved everything in life, all their questions have been answered, they have achieved the ultimate enlightenment! But again I fail to understand why are we working here, we are paid peanuts for sure, not even J of job satisfaction is getting fulfilled, there are no friends here who we are doing vellagiri with, hence there is absolutely no reason why any sane person should be working here. Yet all of us wake up early morning (or late at night, or any odd hour for that matter, depending on our stupid meaningless shifts) and drag ourselves to office, only to waste 9 precious hours of our lives! We know that tom is going to be no diff than yesterday, other than the fact that we’ll bitch about the company and the people here a little more than we did the previous day!
But amidst all this, there is this 1 thing which makes these 9 hours pass easily. And thats chatting with my equally jobless friend!! hehehe! So we are back to square 1 :) chatting with him for 9 hrs straight has defiantly made both of us come closer, bond more! We were pretty good friends before "sametime" came to our life, but now it’s just so much better! We share each others happiness, sadness, problems everything, everyday! cheer each other up, crib together, take each others case ( ok he takes my case :P ),talk on the silliest topics like the smileys in the emoticons list, our love lives, our future 5-10 yrs from now, which defiantly seems like a pipe dream! :) But we don’t care whether its real or virtual, we are simply happy talking about it to each other, understanding each other n liking each other for who we really are!
He is someone who is a MUST friend in everyone’s life, and im lucky he is there in mine, that too pretty much at the top!
He is surely my silver lining! :)

Dedicated to INTERNALS!

We all had been eagerly waiting for the convo dates to be announced since we passed out..after leaving clg, convo was d only thing all of us were looking fwd to! every chat, every phone call defiantly had a mention of it once atleast..whe to go,wt to do there, how many days to go for, where to stay,d list of things to discuss n plan ws endless..after all it ws our last chnce to live tht life! the life which is closest to all our hearts! to live wid ppl who are no less thn family..In d past 4 yrs(past 1 year,in my case) we hd literally done EVERYTHING together! i remember how mch we used to hate waking up for an early morning class (winter or summer dint matter at all,waking up ws a pain in all seasons! :P ),smehw drag ourselves,n at times our frnds(fyi nupur) to d insti,find d last row seat to sit as if the other seats had sme sort of electric current on dem! smehw manage to sit thru d endless lectures and cme out of it alive(thnx to all d word games,cows n bulls & name place animal thing! Also peaking out frm d door in hope of seeing "sme1" pass by and wen he did act as if u wernt expecting him to! hehehe!)And den came d best part,CANTEEN !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wont b exagrating wen i say tht mre thn half our clg life ws spent dr! nt tht d food attracted us,bt ya normal vellagiri is wt we liked n did best! :) We all had our fixed menus,esp drinks! litchi juice fr yang n me,d sucky orange juice fr gulabo n ravish,thumbs up fr sharad,chilly sauce for supple(ya tht idiot used to have it wid evrything,evn cake!) n nupur ws happy wid her paneer chilly n dal makhani! sittin dr fr hrs,talkin utter non sense,shouting,singing,passing comments,life ws perfect! canteen,Amul,Oc were our favourite "CHILLING POINTS",bt d favourite of all ws definatly outside H4!! hated it wen d clk struck 6:30 n it ws time to get into our prison(ya our 2nd home,H9!).We lived a totally different life in d hstl. A life we r ready to die fr now..The huge queue to sign d register,so that our blood thirsty jailor (neeta di) cud happily slp at nite! den d nxt 10 mins were d most hygenic part of d day! lol :D yang n me used to run to d washroom (together)to wash our face n hands.Btw our room ws d coolest room(G-5) in d hstl! lol im nt makin dis up,we actually got sch compliments (a vry sincere thnx to radha!) And den strtd d endless saga of msgin! Airtlels free msgin pack has played cupid to a lot of couples in BIT! nupur n rhea's room ws on d 1st floor n wenevr we enterd,1 ws always on her comp,playin idiotic fcbk games n d othr ws busy chattin/talkin to her husband! arnd 8:30-9 u cud hear names being cd from evry corner of d hstl..it ws dinner time aftr all! though d food ws sucky,bt ya playing wid it ws awsme fun! bt if it gt too unbearable den we alwys hd wi wi to save us :) watchin 1 episode of F.R.I.E.N.D.S ws a part of the daily ritual..ending d day ws jst nt possible widout it! and ya surfing our own personalized google DC++ ! it ws a life saviour..its d biggest revolution the clg has seen till date! :D Its pointless to say tht clg life is missed by all of us..We all wish tht life cud b tht easy again,tht carefree again..wen d only tension ws to wake up early fr class,or d nvr ending xam days,or whr to go aftr xams gt ovr! Planning fr trips is another thing which kept us happily occupied! lol :D it ws jst nvr enuf! Den dr ws our nite out phase! wen evrdy we wud land up at supple's plce! We had our own room dr too!(Thnks supple!) Heart is filled wid a lot of memories,both happy n sad bt each of those memories have dr own special plce in our lives! nt worth tradin fr nythin in dis world! Be it d nite long phone coversations or msgs,or calling each other by nicknames (yes nunny is the only gulabo in our grp!),or ravish's funky text tees,or supple's super irritating behaviour,or forming cults like d MACHOS n PIXIES,n the best of all INTERNALS!!!! Heheheh!
We have seen each other laugh,we have seen each other cry,we have seen each other fall in love! We have been each other’s small lil family!

Life Plan

Omg I have to spend two more hours in front of this computer..sitting and staring at the screen..keeping a tab of time,both in analogue and digital form..how d second needle is taking ages to take its next step and how the two dots b/w two numbers are aimlessly just blinking. Why cant all this happen at a faster pace..At times like dis do we actually understand how time can stand still. I want to write about something interesting,bu my brain is so drained as of now that no thoughts are coming in. Are all my “professional” friends busy wasting their lives over something they neither like nor do they care about? Like all of them,this was definatly not even my so called “plan”. But then where do things ever go according to the plan. If that was the case I would have never had a heart break,i would have never lost touch with any of my childhood friends I played ghar ghar with,i would have become a teacher or a doctor which I wanted to when I was 10. However, some part of me is really happy that my life didn't work out the way I wanted it too..I am happy that I made new friends,people I care about so deeply. I am happy that I finally became an engineer,after spending 4 yrs in a college I never wanted to be a part of,i cried like crazy the day I joined it but then I never realized that there were tears in my eyes the day I left it..when the day I was eagerly waiting for arrived I was sad. I was sad to leave behind a fun filled life but extremely lucky to get 100 thousand happy memories in return. And finally I am happy I had a heart break. I am finally with someone who cares about me deeply,unconditionally. So I guess its not so bad when plans don't work out! Infact it just ends up working out in your favor. Cheers to all the failed plans!

19:57
6th nov
ILP,Gandhinagar

The land where time stands still…

We all have been wanting to conquer time since forever. Ever since we were kids, we have always wanted time to be our best friend, but sadly it’s never been on our side. We always say,”wish I had little more time, I would have done this so much better.” other than the “this” in the sentence, nothing else changes as we grow old…And the “this” varies hugely, covering every problem in our life… Be it our school/college exams, our break up, not getting the much deserved promotion, reaching home late after work, whatever it maybe, time has never been on our side. We always want more of it. But hold on for a second and give a tiny miny thought to this…haven’t we already experienced the much wanted still time!? Trust me we all have..Just go back in time and recall when you had to sit through boring lectures…how even a 40 min lecture seemed impossibly long…when you felt that you wont get through this alive, as if you have been captured in a small dingy room and a fat, boring professor is out there to suck all the life out of you…defiantly time was to be blamed, not coz you didn’t have enough of it but only coz at that very moment it decided to answer your prayers and stand still! You cursed every second of wanting time to stop…But that wasn’t the only time…the wheel kept spinning as u grew older n older! Then came the time when the love bug bit you! Everything around you seemed magical…your dream came true! you never missed any romantic movie, u were the first to buy all the love albums as soon they were launched…life couldn’t be more perfect…and once again you wished that time stands still…but then after a few months your “perfect” love story meets a dead end…and you come back to mother earth, face reality! And at this point, time decides to grant your wish… It stands still…you are heart broken, you are miserable and time doesn’t move…you desperately want to get out of this phase, but you can’t…time has decided to stop... How perfect... It did grant your wish, but played with you a little in the process! your play list changed from love songs to break up songs…you felt that all sad songs are written keeping you in mind…you have your favorite sad song too, which is always on repeat, goes into an infinite loop! But you really can’t blame anyone... You are the one who wanted time to stop! Didn’t you…ok lets move on to another such time! ou are returning home after a long day at office…You are tired, sleepy…Your body can take no more…All you want is some food and sound sleep…But hold on, you have to fight for it! You have been chosen as the “lucky winner” to get stuck in the mad traffic jam!! I don’t get this, there is hardly any movement of cars during these peak hours, why is it still called “rush” hour! Anyways... Like you everyone else is desperate to get back home too…But then the traffic signal’s favorite colour is red, and yours is green... And to top it all, its even best friends with “TIME”… You realize nothing can save you now…Signal and time go into long chat mode, and there is only eternal wait that comes your way! Time has stopped again… It’s catching up with its friend after all….You along with other victims of your kind are helpless, there’s nothing you can do…make your car crawl inch by inch hoping that 1 day you will get home alive…save up as much energy as you can for the same marathon the next day! So you realize how it’s best not to fiddle around with time…Not to ask him to stop, or move faster! Let it run on its own pace! It’s on your side too, but you just seem to overlook it…All those moments which gave you immense happiness, time did play your best friend’s role! Don’t hate it, just trust it…It teaches you to be strong, it makes you the wonderful person that you are…Remember to value it…Whenever you are sad, have faith and just move on, don’t crib…everything will be ok in the end… And as they say, if it’s not ok, it’s not the end